Sunday, October 19, 2008

Doing Too Much..Again!

I hit the breaking point again this week. Complete breakdown. I have way too many things on my plate right now. Something has to go. Yesterday I planned to race the Capital Cup in Topeka, but as I sat down Friday night listing my To Do List for next week and beyond, I came to the realization that I am again doing too much in my life. My body is getting really tired and I am not enjoying anything in life as it passes by.

Here are some of my responsibilities:
  • Take care of my family first - Carolynn my soul mate and my wonderful son Christopher.
  • Maintain homestead, vehicles, bikes, yard, etc.
  • Systems Administrator for the Stowers Institute for Medical Research
  • Studying for Nortel Engineering certification
  • Series Director for the De Stad Cyclocross Van Kansas Series
  • President of MultiSport Marking LLC
  • President of Cow Town Cycling Team
  • Vice President of the Mid-America Nortel User Group
  • Treasurer and Board member for the Kansas Cycling Association
  • Maintain/Administer 3 websites
  • Design and build 6 cyclocross courses
  • Maintain equipment/supplies for events
  • Planning for next springs Fat Tire Duathlon series
  • Working on finding sponsors for team and events
  • Bicycle Racer / MultiSport Athlete (or at least I try to be...)
There is more, but I am getting tired. Something has to go, but what?

Off to mow and clear the course for new weekend's big Smithville Cycloross Festival.


Anonymous said...

Balance, my friend, is hard to achieve. Number 1 should be take care of your family & _yourself_. (Of course, I should take my own advice!)

It's hard when you want to participate in activities, especially in cases where it is something you are passionate about and/or you know that you can make a difference.

What happens at the end of the day, people like us end up to be cross-eyed, exhausted and unable to do anything besides sit on the couch with jello for brains.

Somethings that we do are like our children - we have seen them grow and develop from when they were just a conception. It's hard to let them go after all the effort. At a certain stage, though, they are a big enough entity to look after themselves, and you have to let them move out of the house for them to do that.


Mark Studnicki said...

I agree with Steph. I wrote the book on doing too much, getting physically drained and mentally destroyed, then starting over. I eventually come to my sences and remind myself that all of this racing stuff is only there to feed my competative ego. I could win every race, even Nationals, and ultimately it would mean nothing and probably cause more harm than good. For me, Success in racing usually leads to trying harder to acheive even more success. that's about the time I complete lose it. The key is to find that level of success you are comfortable with that you can obtain without killing yourself, and being happy with that.